Whatever it is

when kids my age to enjoy life. I could
just see it and smile, without know when I can feel it.

loose laughter on their lips as if to
make me fall, yes I was fragile at this time.

how they can make it all seem okay, if
I and the other is different ??

Now I live my youth as well as
possible, with no sense complaining I learned what it meant adult life, without
me knowing, envy in my heart.

load-carrying shoulder felt so great,
with all the burdens that now I carry it everywhere, I tried bit by bit I
threw, but still.

not diminished even more being added
each day.

life continues to spin, even at my age
that teenagers like now I've never tasted and enjoyed everything I want.

all seemed impossible, like away and
kept away until I could not see it.

I did not even dare to dream of all the
beautiful things, because I was afraid when I woke up I only feel the pain of
endless.

said people all started from a dream,
but not with me. I'm afraid to dream, I'm afraid disappointed too deep,
dreaming only makes my imagination fly with the fantasy that I've been feeling.

but nevertheless as a human being, can
only be grateful for what it has now, too wicked if someone does not want to be
grateful if until now he still can feel the aroma of oxygen in the inhaled
every morning, the trees were so green, and the blue sky when bright.

yes, I'm just an ordinary girl who
always expect a miracle could happen, being a child again who does not know it
tasted the bitterness of life, laugh as they play chase was not possible, and
being an adult is a necessity, to become adults who are full demands.

if it's time later, sooner or later I
have to dare to dream, hope all my hard work, it will be beautiful in time,
until I could feel happy to see my children one day when I was married, never
feel what I feel at this time.

thank you for all the lessons you have
given today.